Day 17

Its been almost 3 weeks since I last saw Aphrodite, and its starting to drive me crazy. Another mundane family weekend hasn't helped. Now I'm just single-mindedly looking forward to our next meeting. Day 17.

Having such a love affair as ours over long distances isn't easy. It is a test of your determination and focus. Keeping flights abroad  a secret from your family, friends and work colleagues is practically very difficult. But if the reward at the end is everything you hope for, then its worth it. That first rule back there is my bit of clever post-modern irony by the way. Simultaneously stating the rule and breaking it by telling you. But then thats the thing about love affairs. They are a contradiction. We don't see ourselves as bad people, but we know we are doing something bad. We don't want to hurt our loved ones, but we know that we will hurt them if they find out what we are doing. And we know that they will find out, eventually. Does that stop us doing what we are doing? Not a chance. Because Aphrodite and I, we just want more. And that can't be that bad?

So yes, don't tell anyone. Your whole focus in having a successful secret affair is to leave as few clues as possible. And you will leave them, no matter how much you try. More on that later, But your general philosophy must be to leave as few pieces of evidence as possible, in order to delay that inevitable moment when someone, somewhere, puts some of those pieces together and starts to wonder. They maybe wont get it all at first. But a few pieces of flotsam and jetsam from your carefree salacious activity can add up to suspicion. And once that someone is suspicious, they fit other pieces of information together, and maybe come up with some questions. Questions that are difficult to answer. And then they have it, your secret. And thats it. "Your secret love's no secret anymore".
One thing Aphrodite and I need is to be in control. We can't have our secret out, because then we aren't in control. And while we want more, that doesn't mean we haven't got alot to lose.

Still, I know what I want, right now, more than anything else. Aphrodite.